*Guilt*

God..!

I am/was such a bitch..!

I totally hate myself..

When u have the feeling that is stuck in you..

No matter what you do, it doesn't go away, that's GUILT...!

To most people, apologizing is one of a way to feel better or just make peace with yourself..

But it doesn't work so me...

Like i told a close GF of mine..

The amount of apologies i say, I still feel bad and just a bitch..

Yeah..

I am one of those people where, i don't think first before i say stuff that i might regret later..

And those people that take others for granted, that's me too..

How could I not realize this..

I've been "ME" for 19 years..

And stuff i do or say could have effected someone without me knowing..

How can I be so selfish and just not know..

The guilt i feel for what I've said and done to a really close friend of mine..

I don't think i can ever forgive myself..

And the feeling of " I should stay far from you, its not you, its me"...

Over Dramatic..??

Maybe..

But, seriously the guilt is so bad that at times I wished we didn't have met for "YOUR" sake..

I just wanna say..

" I AM TRULY SORRY"

XoXo